Whenever you need me, whenever you want me, you know you can call me, I'll be there shortly.

I feel that sometimes, nobody's ever held me down & forced me to cry or made me hug them, or got to the inside of me. It's like I say, "Oh I'm fine", and I walk away, and nobody has ever said "No you're not".

It's been a month since we've actually had a real conversation. It's been weeks since you last called. It's been days since I've seen your face. What we had seems like it's been forgotten and replaced. It seems like it was a one time deal, like I only had one chance with you, and that one chance has been screwed up. I didn't mean to.. I let you go, I'll admit that. But I thought you'd care enough to come back. You always made me smile, but a smile isn't forever.

I miss the midnight conversations. I miss how you would make me laugh out of my own frustration. But you just come to know that you get so used to being loved, and in one second it can all come crashing down. Now I know to not let anything get that far ever again, because I didn't know how I could miss you this much.

Sometimes I think we waste our words, we waste our moments. And we don't take the time to say the things that are in our hearts when we have the chance.

I don't know what it is, I just cry sometimes. Maybe I'm too oblivious to the things going on around me, that I don't realize that I'm hurting as much as I am, so when the tears stream down my face, and I don't have anything to say, don't ask me why I'm crying. Because I simply don't know. Just hold me. I just want to be held.

You weren't there when I needed you most.
You didn't call or hold me close.
My heart was breaking in so many ways,
But you walked away knowing i wasn't okay.
And I realized I was never worth it to you.

 

I'm so broken right now, it's insane. My heart has never ached so much. I made the ultimate mistake and now have to suffer the consequences. And there's no one to blame but myself. All there's left to do is keep my head up, learn from the past, and move on. I could sit here complaining about how "I shouldn't have.. I wish I didn't.. etc" but there's no use; what's done is done. The one thing I won't do is let my poor decision become who I am. Everyone makes mistakes.. those who are wise learn from them.

If you knew how much you hurt me, you'd never be able to look me in the eyes again.

I won't fight to stay when all you want for me to do is leave. I'm not gonna miss you when you don't miss me. I'm not gonna care when you don't at all. I'm just not going to try anymore. You've kept my hopes up for much too long. It's about time they come crashing back down to earth.

So, we’ll go our own ways, and hopefully you'll remember the things I’ve told you.
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this, but I guess I’ve learned from it.
But aren’t you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don’t consider this a mistake.
I just wish the story didn’t end this way.

I just don't get how I'm supposed to get over you. Alright I understand you don't like me to where you want to date me but you're not dating anyone else. You always call me to hang out and we talk like we used to. You tell me everything and I basically fall back in love with you. I want to be your friend, I want you in my life, but god I'm so sick of this feeling. The feeling that every time we talk or see each other it means a hell of a lot more to me than it does to you.

 

Walk away, I'm barely breathing as I'm laying on the floor. Take my heart as you're leaving, I don't need it anymore.

The truth is, I'm one of those few people who actually care when I ask "What's wrong?". The only problem is that usually I have no idea what to say afterward or how to make it better. I try not to use phrases like "That sucks" or "I'm sorry", but I still can never find the right words to say. But I promise, I'll always listen. I guess that's all I can do.